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02:09:00 the load of the possibilities

What is liberty? Beyond all too philosophical low digging one can say it provisionally quite easily: The possibility of doing what we want to do even, at one point in time, which we select ourselves. At each time at each place the friends achieve, from everywhere operate, approximately around the clock shoppen, something learn, if one needs it, service on the and.
 
We raffen thus possibilities and assume all thanking, which promises us time Souverainitaet. Virtual World grows in be astonished-worth rate: In the realm of the texts, pictures and purchase order forms everything is possible at each time, for ideas and concepts is fed fast and makes something ago, it is easy to let in the headings of the readers (customer, orderer, fan, client...) whole worlds of possibilities develop and to bring casually the own Schaefchen in the dry. An ever larger part of the working sphere does nothing different one and for it is better paid than all the poor shapes, which must be still in physical for 10 or 20 Marks fifty the hour to course.
 
Fight against the material
 
In the starts of the network I dreamed about it that the Virtualisierung could lead to it, to relieve the physical world: Fewer articles, fewer papers, quite generally fewer material. Unfortunately that did not arrive, in the opposite. From e-Commerce more traffic results ever, an increasing goods stream into ever more vehicles from ever more logistics Dienstleistern by the area is driven. Unrettbar will conservatively printout humans still each quantity, back-ups it in files and files, where they must find, not at all find it hardly more again, because who needs already the once read text a second time? Office furniture, shelves, files and file are however and are always times again renewed, as it announces the mode.
 
Already for many years I fight against accumulations of material. That has thereby begun that I often moved at the beginning of the 80ger, always in the same quarter of Berlin, but was it nevertheless each mark a miserable Schlepperei. To ask and each mark a new opportunity: Do I need that really still? Should I not rather throw away, in order to never carry it more to clear up to abzustauben and into new furniture rearrange, which also again and again carried, abgestaubt and a daily entsorgt to become to have?
 
Each article, which I can do so with the question " that away? " showed me a piece of me looked at. The internal resistance, which I felt against throwing away, did not come from a love for the things, how it feels about of art collecting tanks for a beautiful picture, not motivated by the cash, but alone from the tendency to receive possibilities: I could that again need, can nevertheless be that I want to again read that sometime.
 
Fortunately my putridness was larger and I threw away almost everything. Even " all-holiest " all Symbolisierer, which book wall, I reduced in the course of three removals to approx. 150 books, from which I meant, those am now really importantly and indispensably. (also of these ' I by the way at the most TEN again regarded!).
Since that time I am quite spartanisch in the physical one - not for honourably ecological, ethical or mirror-image-ritual reasons, but from putridness and because the introspection all too often showed that I do not regard the things actually any longer, after I have her bought and ONCE used (or read, seen, tried out).
 
Consistently I avoid today all giving dates and if I suddenly feel the desire to have wanted somewhat absolute I wait for basically 24 hours, or - when large acquisitions - up to four weeks, in order to see whether the desire holds itself. Usually that is not the case, if however nevertheless, then again the usual shows up: I try it out and place it then into a corner, which steps later again than clearing up problem into consciousness. Buys and equal further-given sometimes is the solution, but does not feel I good thereby, because the presented one does not know that I do to it, but ME not with priority something property.
 
Despite all reduction and avoidance attitudes here still too much things are for my feeling: Of that approx. 200 books in the shelf 150 could not do away, the 30 binders would be to 10 to be reduced and those approx. 15 schuber with photos, texts, factories has other purpose, than documenting that it gave me that I carried something out in the world. Do I need that?
 
No. And again not for honourable reasons, but simply, because my factories and performances documented meanwhile in Virtual World sufficiently, like vain pfauen and of more humans spread themselves there to be seen, than ever in this life mean on shelves come past could, even if I it at a federal highway would set up.
 
Virtual ballast
 
It is thus a deception to believe with that (badly & quite) successful fight against the material everything is achieved: In the empty room with few functional furniture dominant the device, into which everything disappears and does not disappear nevertheless, is located how into a black hole! Ever " fewer " I in the physical represented am, the more largely become my virtual cosmos. With it I mean not only web pages, Domains, current projects and future projects, but likewise relations, obligations, subscription, participation, co-operation, memberships. Its everything is, the chances seems infinitely, I strongholds possibilities, still.
 
But I for some time feel the load, which means also this form of possession and involving. Receiving from ever more possibilities costs time, which one spends with simple clerical work. Small obligations (contacts, calculations, complaints, accounts, sortierarbeiten, became outdated left...) add up to a mass of things, with which one wanted to nevertheless actually never deal with oneself. Time sovereignty? But surely: I can make that everything, when I want, but I must make it! And cash costs it also: I pay for Domains, which I do not use, have newspapers subscribed, which I do not read no more, have network acces, which I do not need since the Flatrate no more, but yet did not quit.
 
Thus reduction is announced also here, if I do not want to be up-eaten by all that. One lets that occur for a long time, as long as one believes unconsciously to live eternally. In the second life half it becomes however ever clearer that the time is limited. That it does not depend on it, for the future 1000 possibilities too receive, but the instant to enjoy to learn. I am glad that me " already " is clear with 46 and not only with 60 or 80, and besides lucky, me not into the usual credits, fortunes, activities of building of houses or establishments of an enterprise to have involved which bind so many humans prison-like, who wanted to nevertheless originally extend thereby only their possibilities. Everything that I accumulated, is quite easily degradable - if it also each mark an overcoming costs to adopt a " possibility ". The " liberty of " is more with difficulty to achieve than the so close being situated " liberty too ".
 
It precedes, but slowly. This week nevertheless two Abos quit! And the unused Domain medienverdrossen.de ' I switch off let, so that it does not cause monthly costs. To completely give up I could not do it however yet: Is nevertheless a mad POSSIBILITY of meeting times the attention of the media if I need times again for possibly something...
 

 
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